If I

Will I be enough then?

If I dyed my hair a shade too bright
And learned to laugh at the right time
If I stopped getting lost in my mind
And finally got my words to align
If I kept my thoughts inside my head
And said what I meant, not what I said
If I smiled at the perfect cue
Would I finally be enough for you?

Would you love me then?
Would you call me yours?
Would you look at me twice
Like I was someone who mattered in your life?

If I stopped writing poems that no one hears
And traded dreams for careers
If I fit inside the perfect mould
And never let my heart unfold
If I didn't overthink the past
And let go of the things that never last
If I became someone brand new
Would you finally see me too?

Would you love me then?
Would you call me yours?
Would you look at me twice?
Like I was someone who mattered in your life?

If I did this, and did that, and changed for you
Would you finally see me, the person I became for you, too?
Would you love me then?
Would you call me yours?
Would you look at me twice and see me as enough—
When I craft myself to be your perfect person
Would you please love me then?